This afternoon while Princess, Ragamuffin and my Nephew slept, I began organising photos from last year and this into my yearly highlights photo book. And I noticed something quite quickly from those photographs of the last two years, there are barely, if any, of me at all, either alone, with Hubby or with the kids.
The way I feel about myself and the way I look seems have snowballed into other areas. The way I see myself on the back of the camera, I now realise I haven’t liked in a long time, I thought it was just the past couple of years. Looking back at these three photos though, I realise that back then I should have totally been loving myself and my body sick!! I mean look at me, I was kinda hot if I do say so myself, and with a cracking body to match.
I’ve been going to gym minimum three times a week, mainly I go four. I have been working on my cardio and I have already noticed a big difference in my fitness level…. I actually rode a bike around the caravan park the other week, which I haven’t done since I was a teen. I also do my weights program too, which I am actually really loving. My weight has not shifted a single bit, not even a hundred grams, but I have lost 5cms off my arms and thighs, and a little off my stomach. I’m feeling proud of my new found fitness, and getting there with loving my body and new shape.
But how I see myself and the way I look, doesn’t matter one little bit to my kids. I’m sure of it! They just want their Mum to be around and to make memories with them. Memories which can also be seen in our photobooks, which I am currently not in!! So over the Christmas period, no matter what I feel when I see the image flash back on me on the camera screen, I’m going to make a concerted effort to get in front of the camera rather than standing behind it all the time. I want my kids to be able to look back at those books when they are older and see me in them too.
Are you with me?